Back tracking...

I have just realised that i did that huge blog post last night and didn't even mention my operation. In the early hours of Sunday morning Adam was really poorly. To begin with we thought it was food poisoning from a kebab he'd eaten, but half way through Monday i began to get really painful stomach cramps. We popped out to see some family and as soon as we got home at 5pm i went straight to bed. By about 6mp i was being violently sick, and this continued through the night. I felt really dehydrated but couldn't even sip water without being sick. On Tuesday morning the sickness seemed to have gone, but i felt really weak and achy, so i phoned the hospital to inform them. We spent the majority of the day waiting to hear from different doctors and surgeons before eventually being told my operation was cancelled. So now i have got to wait another couple of weeks before it'll be done. The pain is getting more and more intense and I've now started bleeding (sorry if that's tmi) so i need to ring them back and see what they say. I just want it doing sooner rather than later so the pain will be over.
Its almost been 17 weeks since i had Isabelle now, I've probably got 3 weeks to wait for the op, and then it'll be about another 6 weeks for me to heal, so Adam says he's going to sue them for 'emotional distress'! haha.

Love love love xx

11 +4... prune!

There hasn't been a lot happening to really talk about over the past week or so. The sickness is dying down a little bit. It tends to only be in the evenings now, as I'm getting into bed i tend to lay there for 30 Min's ish feeling awful before i manage to nod off. Bus journeys and lunch times have become much easier.
The apple juice craving is back at its strongest! I am consuming at least 1litre a day, and I'm constantly thirsty.
The tiredness is easing slightly too, I'm still pretty sleepy, but better than i have been.
Kelly's had her scan today and found out that she's 13.5 weeks :) She's got 7 lovely photos and is feeling relieved that the first trimester is over.
I literally cannot wait for that feeling, just knowing that everything is perfect, and the 'dodgy' trimester over, would be the best feeling ever. The second trimester is supposed to be the nicest, energy levels should rise, and sickness should vanish with a bit of luck :)
Last week, Adam and I gathered up some courage and watched 'One born every minute'.. a documentary which shows women giving birth in different circumstances. This was such a big step for both of us, as we are both incredibly squeamish. Iv told Adam all along that its totally his decision whether or not he wants to be there for the birth, i know how bad he is and so will not force him to be there, i know i wouldn't like the idea of having to be around to watch it all. So i have left it that he will be there if he wants to be, if not i don't mind, I'll have my mum either way.The only thing iv said is that i want to know before hand whether he is planning to attend.
He came home from football last week and i had 'One born every minute' on when he came in. Id only just put it on, and was hiding behind a cushion and listening in case id switched it on during a graphic c-section or something. Adam immediately looked uncomfortable. I asked if i should switch it off and he said 'no, lets watch it'. We actually watched a little head come out and everything. I was brave, but still ducking behind a cushion every now and then. Adam sat and watched the whole thing! I was so proud of him!
I was in two minds as to whether watching it would be a good idea, i didn't want to freak myself out even more, but it actually made me feel a lot better. It was a pretty calm one for us to have started with.
We still haven't had our 12 week scan date yet, so I'm going to chase it up tomorrow just to make sure they haven't forgotten us. I'm really looking forward to it.
The weeks are going so fast its scary!
Adam bought his first ever baby items the other day!! Two cream baby grows.. a 'i love mummy' one with a bunny on, and an 'i love daddy' one with a teddy on! He also got a little cream hooded fleecy jumper with both the bunny and teddy on, it has ears on the hood! He was really excited about them, which was so lovely! I'll post photos of them tomorrow when iv charged the camera.
I think bump must have grown a bit the past week or so, this past week iv had a lot of comments from patients, asking when I'm due etc, they must be pretty convinced I'm pregnant and not just fat for them to comment! Threre's no hiding it now!
One lady was sat with her little girl, she said 'look lily, this lady's having a baby. It doesn't look like its going to be in her tummy for much longer!'.. She was so shocked when i told her I'm only 11 weeks! She has decided i am having at least 3 babies, and is coming back in 4 weeks to find out!
Button is now the size of a prune by the way, which i think is rather a cute thought :)
Anyway bed time for the Elce family :)

Night all, love love love xxxx

8 + 4!

I cant believe we are already 8 weeks and four days pregnant! Its gone pretty quick really. The sickness is still terrible, especially on bus journeys, and i am weeing almost constantly (except when the midwife asks me to, which is annoying!). Today's sample was nothing short of embarrassing, it didn't even cover the powder stuff in the bottom of the pot! So she's given me a pot to bring home and do as homework. Ha ha. I only went this morning to repeat my blood test really, which i was fabulous at yet again! (proud!!)
My friend had her 12 week scan yesterday and its got me so excited! Its such a clear picture! You can see the baby's bottom lip, and little toes and everything in so much detail! It just doesn't seem real that our baby will be that developed in only 3.5 weeks! We absolutely cannot wait for our scan, its going to be amazing knowing that we will see button in such detail. Last time was exciting, but we were sort of prepared to not be able to see much, whereas this time will be totally different. I'm really hoping that our appointment will be on valentines day, it would be so special.
My energy levels seemed to be a little better for a few days, but I'm working a 6 day week this week, and every day has been 100% hectic, so I'm feeling pretty shattered and ready for a day off! I really need to try and get stuff done on Thursday though, every night i come home and collapse on the sofa, so i could really do with a day of housework to catch up a bit again.
On a positive financial note, Adam had bought me an iMac computer for my birthday, which he had put on finance, with everything that's been going on i haven't even opened it yet, and it was mainly for my recording studio, which isn't a priority anymore. We were really doubtful that we'd have any chance of cancelling the contract, but Adam rang last night, and we have returned the mac tonight, and managed to cancel everything. Which is going to save us quite a bit of money!

Will let you all know as soon as we get our Scan date :)

and P.S Just checked my blog stats, and iv almost had 700 views :')

Love love love xxxxxx

"Pregnant Princess"

Sorry i haven't blogged for a while, I'm up to my neck, drowning in revision for my assessments, which by the way, i still wish i could fast forward through. I am not looking forward to them one little bit. The idea of them is keeping me awake at night.It'll be heavenly when they are over and done with!!

There isn't really a great deal more to say at the moment, the sickness is still only just bareable, I'm still exhausted but I'm loving it all. Apparently if u stretched button out, from head to toe is about 4cm!! But its much comfier to curl up at the moment :)

I went to Asda with mum and Adam last night, mums bought me some black maternity jeans, and black work trousers, a little denim maternity skirt and tights which I'm going to give her money for. I can literally only fit in maternity stuff now! I got a nice black maternity dress too for Shawna's 21st Birthday Bash which is in a couple of weeks, so now i can stop worrying about what I'm going to wear for that :)

Its the 'baby event' at Asda too, and there were some amazing deals, such as a car seat for £25!! So we bought a set of bottles and sterilizer, which was reduced to a fantastic £10!!

Iv had a rather lovely day today. Went to a car boot sale with mum and Chris, which was hardly worth the 75p entry fee as there was literally nothing there! Then we had a drive to Sutton and had a look round Matalan. We bought a few bits from here too, some little white socks (pack of 5) 3 Neutral feeding cloths and a fluffy reindeer hat and gloves which is adorable!! We also found the most amazing maternity top, its white with 'Pregnant Princess' written on in swirly letters!! :D

There's some really nice baby stuff in there, changing mats, outfits, bedding etc so I'm definitely planning a trip with Adam once we've been paid!

Once we got back to mums, we spent a couple of hours looking online at different prams. We saw an amazing one, which i have since shown Adam, and he loves it as much as i do! Its a 9 way pram, which means it would last Button a long time, and we needn't buy a car seat, a moses basket or maybe even a highchair! It does everything!! It is a little out of our budget though £635, reduced from £835!! But there are some on EBay in fantastic condition for a lot less!

If you cant see the pictures at the top very clearly, you can see a larger image of them if you go on www.mamasandpapas.com and type in 'Ultima 9 in 1' .

Right, time for me to get back to exciting old revision :( Lucky me!

Love to all xxxxxx

Bad day :(

Today has been a bad day, literally from setting off this morning its been no fun. I started the day feeling pretty chuffed with myself, as i got up in plenty of time to wash and dry my hair, iron my uniform and pack myself a lunch. I had a stroll to the bus stop with plenty of time to spare. Looking back, i don't know how i managed to get through the journey, the sickness was almost unbarable. As i was about to step off the bus, it jolted down (as if to let a pushchair on), this is normally done as a gentle release, but it was one sudden jerking movement which sent me flying. My bags went flying and i hit the concrete flat on. I lay there for a second, confused, blood was dripping out of my mouth and i could feel the scuffs on my knees and chin, the only thing i could think was 'have i hurt my baby'. Nobody even offered me a hand, or picked my bags up, people just walked straight by. I got up, shaking, and didn't even acknowledge the blood, i walked in a daze clutching onto my tummy praying i hadn't done any important damage. After a few minutes i had a quick drink of water to rinse away the blood in my mouth, and went into Subway. There i went into the toilet to check i had all of my teeth, and gave my chin and my knees a little wipe. I wanted to cry, i felt like a child. It wasn't the pain of the grazes, it was the fear of what i could have done, and the shock that nobody was willing to help me. I trembled into work and stumbled over words trying to ask Shawna for an antiseptic wipe. She looked puzzled at me and asked me what id done to my chin. I just burst into tears. She took me round the back and sat me down, cleaned me up and got me a drink of water. What a lovely start to the day.
Work was manic today, every time i turned round we had a new que of patients at the front desk. It was a pretty stressful day, and i found myself counting down the hours until i could go home. We were 30 minutes late leaving due to a late dispense, which convinced me i had missed my lift home with Amber. When we finally got out, i rushed round to D&A and luckily for me everyone had been held behind there too. I nipped into MacDonald's while i waited and got a drink and some chips for us both, as i felt weak with hunger. Amber soon came out and we set off for the car. As we got outside the Swan pub in the town centre, we saw a man on the floor and a girl screaming for help knelt beside him, the man was bleeding quite badly, had had a fit and was foaming at the mouth. There was a girl in a nearby telephone box already on the phone to the ambulance service. We rushed over, both of us froze for a moment as we panicked and went blank. We got the man into the recovery position and i checked his airways. We cushioned his head and i began to talk loudly to him. The girl in the phone box was getting upset and struggling to talk to the operator, as she knew the man, so i ran over to take over for her. Amber stood at the entrance to the phone box and shouted questions and instructions at the girls as the woman talked me through everything. We stayed on the phone until we saw the blue flashing light Amber went out and waved the ambulance over, and they started seeing to the man. We hung around for a few seconds and then made our way back to the car. Adrenaline pumping through both of us. Since getting home, all i can bare to do is sleep. Its pretty frustrating for me as there's so much i want to do, but i can barely keep my eyes open. Adams been fantastic. I told him to let me sleep for 20 minutes before waking me up to start dinner. I woke up over an hour later to find that he has cleaned the whole kitchen and is doing dinner himself (home made shepherds pie ) :)
I feel really bad for him though, he is ending up doing all the work because I'm almost to exhausted to hold my own head up. I have felt really rough since waking up. Been violently sick upstairs and I'm aching everywhere. I actually feel ill rather than pregnant tonight. But i have got my appetite back a little bit after smelling the yummy dinner that's being cooked for me as i type :)
I love my Adam, he's a fantastic husband and has been such great help to me throughout this pregnancy. I just hope he isn't getting fed up with all the work he's been doing, I'm hoping the exhaustion wont last to much longer, and I'll be back to my energetic self, able to really start working hard around our beautiful house.

Lets hope tomorrow is a better day!

Love always xxxx