A sigh of relief!

I have finally got my assessments over and done with (mainly). I really surprised myself with how well i did. There were so many things i thought i would fail on, and it all went really smoothly really. I actually ended up having a pretty enjoyable couple of days. We ended up running out of time, so i have got a couple of other bits to complete in a couple of weeks, and theres a few pages of my book iv got to finish off, but as soon as thats done i should be well on the way to my next certificate.

That really is a huge load off my mind. Months of worrying over, i don't know what i was so bothered about.

We had our first midwife appointment on Tuesday morning. Our midwife is called Heather, and she's lovely. We got given loads of books and leaflets to read and she gave us tons of information. She measured and weighed me, took my blood pressure, went through our family medical history and asked lots of questions. We have come to the decision that the baby will be born at Bassetlaw hospital in Worksop, as its slightly closer to our house, but its also on the same road that Adam works on. Heather told us that because of some difficulties i have, and some medical history, i will have to attend more than the average number of appointments. Usually we would have all of our appointments at the doctors surgery, and only scans at the hospital. We will have to have additional consultations at the hospital to keep a good check on everything, which is pretty reassuring. At the end of the appointment, i had my blood tests. Which i have such a phobia of. I get myself in such a state for ages before hand and often end up close to fainting before iv even been called in. I really am proud of how calm i stayed. As usual, i was a little bit worked up before hand. But once it came to actually doing it, id been so distracted by baby talk and gotten so excited by it all, i literally stuck my arm out and chatted my way through it. Still, i far from enjoyed it, but thats the bravest i have ever been. Heather was really pleased with me, however she said i did go totally white while she was doing it. She fetched me a glass of water, and gave me a sympathy plaster and called Adam back in.

I feel like iv really made a big step with that phobia, and was really excited when Heather told me i would only have to have one more throughout the whole pregnancy!

An abrupt end to my relief came this afternoon... Heather phoned. My bloods have got stuck in a shoot at Kings Mill hospital, so iv got to go and have them done again. I cant believe it. Iv got to try and just remember that i found it a piece of cake last time, and that the thought is worse than actually having it. I'm sure i'll be fine.

Had a nice day today. Came to mums on the bus, and we've spent all afternoon going round looking at pushchairs. I am now absolutely besotted with my Ultima 9 in 1. I had wondered, whilst looking at it online, whether it might be quite heavy. Having pushed it round the shop today (with a teddy in!) it really isn't at all. Its very lightweight, and easy to put up and down. It does everything, and looks beautiful, and so comfy. I really do love it. The dark denim (city scape) colour looks fantastic too!

I plan to try and get Adam to Mamas and Papas on Sunday to show him, i think he'll really love it.

I have suddenly started weeing twice as often! I was going quite a lot anyway, but over the past week it seems to have become so much more frequent! I have now started to average 6 toilet trips a night, which is quite inconvenient! Its now literally every hour during the day too!

In fact, i'm going to finish here for tonight, because im desperate right now!!

Love to all xxxxx

"Pregnant Princess"

Sorry i haven't blogged for a while, I'm up to my neck, drowning in revision for my assessments, which by the way, i still wish i could fast forward through. I am not looking forward to them one little bit. The idea of them is keeping me awake at night.It'll be heavenly when they are over and done with!!

There isn't really a great deal more to say at the moment, the sickness is still only just bareable, I'm still exhausted but I'm loving it all. Apparently if u stretched button out, from head to toe is about 4cm!! But its much comfier to curl up at the moment :)

I went to Asda with mum and Adam last night, mums bought me some black maternity jeans, and black work trousers, a little denim maternity skirt and tights which I'm going to give her money for. I can literally only fit in maternity stuff now! I got a nice black maternity dress too for Shawna's 21st Birthday Bash which is in a couple of weeks, so now i can stop worrying about what I'm going to wear for that :)

Its the 'baby event' at Asda too, and there were some amazing deals, such as a car seat for £25!! So we bought a set of bottles and sterilizer, which was reduced to a fantastic £10!!

Iv had a rather lovely day today. Went to a car boot sale with mum and Chris, which was hardly worth the 75p entry fee as there was literally nothing there! Then we had a drive to Sutton and had a look round Matalan. We bought a few bits from here too, some little white socks (pack of 5) 3 Neutral feeding cloths and a fluffy reindeer hat and gloves which is adorable!! We also found the most amazing maternity top, its white with 'Pregnant Princess' written on in swirly letters!! :D

There's some really nice baby stuff in there, changing mats, outfits, bedding etc so I'm definitely planning a trip with Adam once we've been paid!

Once we got back to mums, we spent a couple of hours looking online at different prams. We saw an amazing one, which i have since shown Adam, and he loves it as much as i do! Its a 9 way pram, which means it would last Button a long time, and we needn't buy a car seat, a moses basket or maybe even a highchair! It does everything!! It is a little out of our budget though £635, reduced from £835!! But there are some on EBay in fantastic condition for a lot less!

If you cant see the pictures at the top very clearly, you can see a larger image of them if you go on www.mamasandpapas.com and type in 'Ultima 9 in 1' .

Right, time for me to get back to exciting old revision :( Lucky me!

Love to all xxxxxx

Apple Juice Apple Juice Apple Juice :/

Well, my four Litres of Apple Juice have gone in a couple of days. I cant actually believe how strongly I'm craving it, iv always been more of an Orange Juice kinda girl! I wouldn't actually be surprised if button came out a bit greenish!
Well, nerves are running high about tomorrows scan, i didn't get a great deal of sleep last night, so god help me tonight! Adams really excited about it, he's talked about it loads.
Just found out that i had my wires crossed a little though, apparently we wont HEAR Buttons heartbeat, but we might see it as a little flicker on the screen. That will still be amazing though so I'm very excited. I just wish i could calm my nerves over the whole thing. Iv got so many questions whizzing round my head that I'm hoping tomorrow will answer.
Gotta try and keep my cool the next couple of weeks too. Iv got some big things coming up at work that iv been stressing myself about for the past few months. I have to be assessed in order to pass my course and get the pay rise that we so desperately could do with now. But i just tend to turn to jelly when i know I'm being watched, or when questions are fired at me. I really don't feel like I'm going to pass, at all, and i think I'll be lucky if i get through the two days without bursting into tears, but to be honest, i just want it to be over now. The thought of not having to worry about it anymore feels like heaven, so I'll do my best and keep my fingers crossed.
Going to try and get some work don't today. There is so much to be done around the house, but iv been so exhausted. I hate just sitting here, seeing how much there is to do though. I just need to find the energy to crack on with it.
I was hoping to get some carpet for baby's room while the sales are on. I don't see this as a 'baby buy' that could be unlucky, we were wanting to decorate anyway. Pregnant or not, we need new carpets :p
The past couple of days iv been embarrassingly emotional. I actually sat and cried for about half an hour yesterday morning, because i felt 'alone' :/ I then watched a few episodes of Eastenders, and cried at that. Then when Adam came home we watched Toy Story 3, and i SOBBED at that! And i just generally feel like i could burst into tears at any time. Its not that I'm sad. Not at all. I'm still over the moon and loving every second, i guess its just hormones, maybe mixed with paranoia.
Anyway, I'll pop back on later for another short blog (maybe in the middle of the night when i cant sleep).

Love always xxxxxxxx