A sigh of relief!

I have finally got my assessments over and done with (mainly). I really surprised myself with how well i did. There were so many things i thought i would fail on, and it all went really smoothly really. I actually ended up having a pretty enjoyable couple of days. We ended up running out of time, so i have got a couple of other bits to complete in a couple of weeks, and theres a few pages of my book iv got to finish off, but as soon as thats done i should be well on the way to my next certificate.

That really is a huge load off my mind. Months of worrying over, i don't know what i was so bothered about.

We had our first midwife appointment on Tuesday morning. Our midwife is called Heather, and she's lovely. We got given loads of books and leaflets to read and she gave us tons of information. She measured and weighed me, took my blood pressure, went through our family medical history and asked lots of questions. We have come to the decision that the baby will be born at Bassetlaw hospital in Worksop, as its slightly closer to our house, but its also on the same road that Adam works on. Heather told us that because of some difficulties i have, and some medical history, i will have to attend more than the average number of appointments. Usually we would have all of our appointments at the doctors surgery, and only scans at the hospital. We will have to have additional consultations at the hospital to keep a good check on everything, which is pretty reassuring. At the end of the appointment, i had my blood tests. Which i have such a phobia of. I get myself in such a state for ages before hand and often end up close to fainting before iv even been called in. I really am proud of how calm i stayed. As usual, i was a little bit worked up before hand. But once it came to actually doing it, id been so distracted by baby talk and gotten so excited by it all, i literally stuck my arm out and chatted my way through it. Still, i far from enjoyed it, but thats the bravest i have ever been. Heather was really pleased with me, however she said i did go totally white while she was doing it. She fetched me a glass of water, and gave me a sympathy plaster and called Adam back in.

I feel like iv really made a big step with that phobia, and was really excited when Heather told me i would only have to have one more throughout the whole pregnancy!

An abrupt end to my relief came this afternoon... Heather phoned. My bloods have got stuck in a shoot at Kings Mill hospital, so iv got to go and have them done again. I cant believe it. Iv got to try and just remember that i found it a piece of cake last time, and that the thought is worse than actually having it. I'm sure i'll be fine.

Had a nice day today. Came to mums on the bus, and we've spent all afternoon going round looking at pushchairs. I am now absolutely besotted with my Ultima 9 in 1. I had wondered, whilst looking at it online, whether it might be quite heavy. Having pushed it round the shop today (with a teddy in!) it really isn't at all. Its very lightweight, and easy to put up and down. It does everything, and looks beautiful, and so comfy. I really do love it. The dark denim (city scape) colour looks fantastic too!

I plan to try and get Adam to Mamas and Papas on Sunday to show him, i think he'll really love it.

I have suddenly started weeing twice as often! I was going quite a lot anyway, but over the past week it seems to have become so much more frequent! I have now started to average 6 toilet trips a night, which is quite inconvenient! Its now literally every hour during the day too!

In fact, i'm going to finish here for tonight, because im desperate right now!!

Love to all xxxxx